Freedom House

I'm finally home.

It feels so good to be able to finally say that!

For the first time in three years, I have a physical place to call home. Permanently.

I love my little house. It's mine to keep and take care of and decorate how I wish. Kilkenny is my home, and I have much exploring and many adventures ahead of me.

So, what have I been doing since I moved in three weeks ago?

When I moved out of New Ross, my heart was a mess. I was a wreck. After living amidst all the tension and the spiritual atmosphere of that little town(I won't get into details here on this public space), after having to say goodbye once again to beloved friends and teammates, I was done.
Saying goodbye to my teammates was really hard. It was the straw that broke the camel's back. After they left, I stayed in my room for a week and watched trashy teen tv shows(*cough*Teen Wolf *cough*). I don't even like trashy tv shows! Except to eat and use the bathroom, I didn't leave my bed once for an entire week. I even cried. Once. For maybe five minutes. What? I know! I never cry! I know, I handled it like a bad breakup. But after three years of having shallow conversations or investing deeply into people only to say goodbye, and after having nobody(except for three or four people, and one of them is my mother) contact me on a regular basis from home, after feeling abandoned by my church and everyone I knew, I was done. I couldn't do it anymore. So can you really blame me?

Needless to say, I was in need of healing.
I needed to start over. That's what I've been doing these past few weeks.

Healing.

For the first time in seven months, I can feel Holy Spirit again. I can hear God's voice so clearly. And I have missed it so much.

Except to care care of necessities, like grocery shopping, I have been a complete hermit, I've been in recluse. Staying in my house, hanging out with Jesus, cooking, baking, binge watching tv shows or youtube, and having spontaneous worship sessions in my kitchen have filled my days.
This has also been a time of receiving vision for the next season. Everything that was spoken over me/prophesied over me is starting to take root and grow. This is a time of growth, of vision and dreaming and planning.
You guys, I can't get into many details on here, but holy shit. Jesus has so many plans for this house. Y'all know my dream for the safe house and how unbelievably huge it will be? This house is the start of it. This is the beginning.
This house will be a haven.
This house will be a place where chains fall off, where people hurt or rejected by the church can come and heal, where they're set free.

I'm calling it the Freedom House.

I wish I could tell you everything, I wish I could divulge all the little details. But I can't yet.
Just know that it's so, so good.

It will take time.
But it will be worth it.

This has also been a time of relying completely on God for my every need. I put the last of my pocket money into the deposit for this house. So far, Jesus has looked after my basic needs. I have asked for wisdom on where every dollar/euro is going (A big thank you to you who have donated one time and monthly. You are sowing into something so huge and beautiful and I can promise you that it is not going to waste. I pray you are blessed abundantly for giving).
Something that Jesus reminded me is that it's not who has extra money to spare, but it's the condition of their hearts. I cried out for the past seven months for people to partner alongside what Jesus is doing out here, to see hearts changed and minds renewed, and nobody heard, save for three or four wonderful people who have beautiful hearts.
So I can shout from the rooftops all I want, but that's not going to do much. I have to wait for Jesus to move hearts. And so wait is what I will do. I'm not going to worry about rent due in two weeks, or anything of the sort.
Jesus has promised me this house. He has promised me chains broken and lives changed. He has promised me the nations.
And so I choose peace.
I choose to be silent and wait in eager anticipation.

"For the creation waits in eager anticipation for the children of God to be revealed." Romans 8:19
"But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what they already have? But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently." Romans 8:24-25
"God will make this happen, for He who calls you is faithful." 1 Thessalonians 5:24